van.

Love bug ♥

2012-02-13T10:40:00.000-08:00

Hey babe,

Just wanna take this chance to tell you

-I LOVE YOU SO FREAKIN MUCH!-

Happy valentine's love ♥

My heart beats for you; so dont ever leave me.

I love you baby

One heck of a day

2012-01-15T05:46:00.000-08:00

Today had a crappin busy day,

worked at Just Music Acdemy then later off to pavillion KL/ts/sw with Shu Hui.

Bought these cool shoes at forever 21 :)

i dont want to fight no more

2012-01-02T11:17:00.000-08:00

Babe,
this to me, is what you think of me.
You love me for who i am, you love me with your whole heart, and your life,
you love me till you'd sacrifice everything.
You love me ; and you see me
You saw my ugly side
I was at my worst, destroying you with hatred and scolds, and swears
and yet you still loved me.

You are the only person to have loved me, at stick by me
through pain and happiness.
I treat you so bad ; so really bad
i hurt you badly too.

I know you're sick of hearing me saying im sorry.
I feel as though i dont deserve you.
You should not get stuck to a loser like me.

I love you.
And starting now, i will fight for you.
I wont give up easily.
I wont break easily.
Sorry for dissapointing you.

I love you sirinthawn.

i've got the most amazing girl in my hands

2011-12-28T15:43:00.000-08:00

You changed my life
You rock my life
You turn my heart into a roller coaster
You make my world much more beautiful
You're my supernova star
you're the most beautiful girl ♥

im so lucky to have you running into my life
you are mine forever
and i wont ever let you go

if i could make you happy by singing ; ill sing my lungs out for you
if you ever got lost in the middle of the sea, ill be the light to guide you
if you ever forget how much you really mean to me, just call me and i will show you
if you were in trouble , ill fight my way to save you
ill be there, ill be there baby
you're the one thing in my life that could ever make me smile

I love you , beautiful girl :)

Post-SPM freedom

2011-12-18T07:24:00.000-08:00

Back to blog. I had one of the most exciting week of after-SPM freedom.
Yeah, SPM is over and im so ... FREE!
I finally got to feel the freedom of wanting to do stuffs that ive been wanting to do for ages.
Im freakin free!!!!

Anyway, days away aftr SPM 1st trip was to some jungle place.
Went thr with the class ; and seriously i felt like tarzan :D
Climbed frm trees to trees, had some freezing time in some horrible igloo hse, had fun and rode a tarzan bus
It was amazing. Great stuff^^

Yup that's all of us there <3

Right after all that climbing, i went on straight to Kuantan
It was an off-the-world- experience i ever had
Went thr with babe ; and had the time of my life
It was serious awesome,
Got to water-raft, climbed stuffs, built one-heck of a boat, walked on muddy stuffs, got bittenby leeches and gone crazy
it was serious fun.

on the raft-boat we made :)

Right after all that,
IM OFF TO SINGAPORE!

I seriously am having the best time off my life right after SPM :D
Went to Universal Studios, Singapore Science Centre andOrchard Road all in two days!
Yahooooo! I had the greatest fun of my life thr.
I so love my life right now <3

going crazy for singapore!

"The spaces between your fingers were created so that another's could fill them in"

2011-12-01T05:39:00.000-08:00

Hey baby, its been a month since i've written.
Been busy chuckin myself in the room, tryin to cope with exams but im takin some time off cause today is a special day for you and i.
Im sorry we cant spend this day together, but baby i promise, once this exam is over,
we'll have the world to ourselves.
Ill take you off to the stars and we'll forget about everything but live for us.

baby i love you.
i love you even when it rains.
i love you even when the stars shine.
ill love you forever.
and i wont let go.

215days bein together
the8thmonth of our lives
01122011
iloveyou

made you these ; cause i really really love you!

2011-11-02T21:41:00.000-07:00

hey, made smth really special for you
its nthn much really ><

but its our 7th month, teehee♥ i love you, baby :)

whats on the inside ><

baby, i really do love you so much.
you've been with me, thru thick and thin.
and even when i treat you so bad,
you still stick by me, holding close
and i love you so much for that.
And i know, i keep saying this all the time but,
Baby, i love you ♥
We'll make it thru :)
Ill wait for you, even when its hard, or evenwhen we're on the verge of giving up.

cause babe, i wont ever give up on loving you, be mine forever

185days♥

2011-11-02T21:14:00.000-07:00

My baby got me these for our 7thmonth♥

chocolates! aah!♥

haha, and this cute little handsome thing she got frm the island.
babe, sorry cause the writings got smudged ><

thank you baby for the gifts you got me :)
and stop thinkin its nothing much,
cause its the best gift someone has ever given me,
plus you got me a ship! :D
teehee ♥
i love you baby . 5201314

You are, and always have been, my dream.

2011-10-28T02:34:00.000-07:00

I want to be the smile, the first thought, the long drive, the short walk, the last voice, the random call, the sweet dream, the perfect kiss, the comfort hug, the sparkle in your eye. I want to be everything you need, or simply just what you want.

I want to be yours

Graduation Day 2011

2011-10-15T21:00:00.000-07:00

thank you for the flowers bii♥

I got a surprise from baby today :)

Teehee ; love you to the max babe

I love you

2011-10-14T07:44:00.000-07:00

Hey you! Grrrrrrrr
Plan so many things for me FOR WHAT?
Wastemoney! And wastetime!
ROAR

TT
the picture above says it all
the date that i will treasure forever ♥
i got a surprise from you!
>< and its one day earlier aah hahaha!! GRR
you cacat!
Thank you for planning so much for me bii
No one has ever done this for me before
Or has ever prepared a surprise for me
especially one day earlier!! ><
You make me feel so special bii ♥

You surprised me dear :)
I love you so much bii
And its okay nvm that you cant come :)
In my heart, you are always there for me
Ill be going there with you by my side
Ill talk to you and imagine you are right beside me xD

and hey ;
graduation doesnt mean its all over okay :)
dont think too much.
and dont miss me yea!
its just a function, nthg much one :D
I wont be leaving you ; thats for sure♥

Dont forget at 3.40pm tomorrow :)
Something special is going to happen :D
You stole my heart babe
and i know i keep saying this
BUT

I love you so much

forever ♥

im no superman

2011-10-09T04:53:00.000-07:00

There are no words, to paint a picture of you girl
Your eyes, those curls, it's like you're from some other world
You walk in my way,
I feel my heart beating,
And I get so nervous everytime you come near,
Why you make fall for you so hard?

It ain't no lie, I have to tell you how I feel,
'Cause Each time you say my name,
oh God I can't stop shaking.
If I could just hold you now,
I would never let you go.

hey,
im sorry that im not always there for you
i cant be there to hug you tight when you need me
i cant protect you when you needed protection
i wasnt always there for you
im sorry

If I could be your superman,
I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
'cause everytime you touch my hand,
I can feel my powers running through my veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
'Cause I'm no superman,
and I hope you like me as I am.

I love you

remember the dreams we made?

2011-10-03T05:03:00.000-07:00

Hey did you remember the dream we made?
When we're both on the beach
im holding you in my arms
tightly and never letting go
im imagining you
with winds in your hair
wearin that bikini xD
and we're happy
cause we are together
and we are living our lives to the max

please be mine forever

and lets make it come true

i wanna take you and fly from here

leaving everything ;

and have the whole world to our own

i love you :)

these5months♥

2011-10-01T02:57:00.000-07:00

Hey,
I love you!
Today, its a new day of a new month
and we're already 5months old ><
teehee♥
154 days, and im still so crazy over you!
what have you done to me, till im really going lovesick har? GRR!
next time, im gonna show you my heart
cause i carved your name there ; on my heart
so YOU ARE FOREVER MINE!
my hakmilik!
you cant run away from me!!!!
babe, you're my heart and my soul
and i know i keep saying this a hundred billion million times
but im still gonna say it
I LOVE YOU!!

happy aniversary chubbs♥
i love you with my wholeheart
bemineforevergirl ; cause ill wait on you forever

I ♥ YOU

sungrace

2011-09-25T06:44:00.000-07:00

I wanna love you like how the sun shines

You are my life, my soul, my everything

I want you for my whole life

I want to watch the sun set with you by my side

I want to watch the sun rising from the earth with you

I want to start the day with you

I want to wake up seeing you by my side

I want to be with you

I want your warmth

I want your hugs and kisses in the mornings

I want to hold you and hug you

I want this to last

I need you

I love you

You are mine

everyday

2011-09-20T09:00:00.000-07:00

Hey just wanna say that im sorry bout today
I guess we misunderstood each other
I understand why you acted that way
And I broke my promise :(
I hope i didnt dissapoint you :(
And i ignored you, and wasted time
when we were supposed to go sumwhr :(

im sorry, for makin you emo TT
But babe,
you made me smile again today

thank you
i love you
♥

i love you with my tshirt on

2011-09-20T08:50:00.001-07:00

Last sunday,
You looked amazing
and i just cant get you off my mind
saw you wearin my shirt
and my heart went like a bullet train

You

2011-09-19T06:51:00.000-07:00

You keep amazing me babe
Evverysingle day, i learn something new about you
You are really making me so in love with you
Im fallin in love with you all over again
Every time I see you
I still have the same feeling that I did
since we were first together
I love you
I really do <3

ill replace your brokenheart with mine

2011-09-16T18:40:00.000-07:00

Everysingletime you cry,
my heart breaks so bad.
I cant stand seeing you hurt.
you are so PRECIOUS to me.
I CANNOT LET YOU GET HURT.
its so pain everytime seeing you so broken and sad
and no one's there to comfort you.
If your heart breaks, open up
cause i wont ever HESITATE

to give you my heart to replace the broken cracks in yours.
PLEASE DONT HURT YOURSELF.

Im so in love with you
that i just cant let you get hurt.
call out to the winds, shout out my name
and ill come running so fast to you.
please just take care
i love you

everysingletime

2011-09-16T18:33:00.000-07:00

i want to hug you

hug youu tight till you'll forget everysinglething
i want to say, i love you a thousand times to you
i want to hear your voice
i want to be by your side
and i never want to leave

my promise to you

2011-09-16T17:58:00.000-07:00

When you said the thing you're so afraid of has come true,
Then you're wishin it'd come true
Stop thinkin about it
Cause I've promised you
That I wont EVER leave you
That I wont EVER lose the feeling
That I wont EVER let you go
That I wont NOT care or love you
That I'd NOT forget you

I promise you this,
I am forever yours, i will not leave you
Please stop thinkin about it

I LOVE YOU
and ill do watever it takes to have you back

I PROMISE YOU
ill carve out this promise in my heart
its embed at the back of my palms
its written in my heartbeats
I will only love you

travel the world with you

2011-09-15T04:11:00.000-07:00

babe, lets travel the world and live our life to the max
lets leave everything behind and get that freedom
to feel life in its ultimest freedom
to fly in the skies
and rule the world ; while we're together

i wanna take you off the ground
and leave this life we're sufferin in
start a whole new life
travellin the whole wide world
explorin every possiblities
and still havin you by my side

babe, will you come with me to catch our dreams?

Hey!

2011-09-12T05:35:00.000-07:00

Bored.
So i took a webcam of myself
Grr I MISS YOU :(
i want to pinch your chubby face lar
chubbs, miss you like crazy.
Come right beside me so i could hold you close to my heart,
and then you could hear my heart beat your name a thousand times.

im your stereo love ♥

2011-09-10T20:47:00.000-07:00

Make me your radio, so turn me up when you feel low
My heart's a stereo, it beats for you, so listen close ;
Hear my thoughts in every note, this melody was meant for you
Just sing along to my stereo

:/

2011-09-05T07:46:00.000-07:00

Hey you,
Today I love your new hair
I love your smile when i saw you cumin thru the gates
I love your smell
And my heart said -I missed you bad :(
I emo-ed
I broke your heart today
and made you cry :(
I couldnt protect you
I wasn't there to make you safe
I'm sorry

I miss you SO BAD :(

I run to you

2011-09-05T06:34:00.000-07:00

Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
And I run to you,
and i know i ll be alright,
with just a kiss goodnight
in the moonlight

IMY so bad :(

Love

2011-08-27T08:58:00.001-07:00

I am truly in love with you. I love every inch of you with every inch of me. I love your soul. I love your brain. I love everything you have to say. I love your legs! I love listening to you. I love the way you look at life. I love your rosy cheeks and your soft, cold, wintery skin. I love your eyes, I'm a true sucker for your eyes. I love how selfless you are. I love that you don't even know how to be horrible to people. I love how you're like nobody else. I love that you see me like nobody has ever seen me. I love that you love me. I love the songs you sing. I love lying in bed with you. I love sneakily kissing you when nobody's looking. I love that we both tried so hard for this. I love that you are so open with how you feel. I love that I met you. I love the way you dress. I love the way you hold yourself. I love holding your hand. I love treating you like you're the only person in the world. I love that you're the only person in my world. I love that you really care. I love your passion. I love the fire that's going on inside you. I love your cheekbones. I love to see them go red everytime you blush infront of me. I love your smell. I love kissing you when you’ve been drinking mcD's coke. I love our language. I love the way you breathe. I love giving you nose rubs. I love when you kiss my forehead. I love our secrets. I love your dark side. I love buying you present. I love making you things. I love that you make me things. I love your grin. I love it when you laugh. I love that you're my home. I love that you know everything. I love that we share everything. I love when you brush your hair to the side. I love starring at you. I love you starring at me. I love talking to you. I love hearing every little thing you have to say. I love your flirty ways. I love your woman hips. I love your hair in a curl. I love your heartbeat. I love your eyelashes. I love the things you say. I love the texts you send me. I love the words you write. I love your imagination. I love falling asleep next to you. I love waking up next to you. I've always loved you, I'll always love you. I love that nobody knows that I love you except you, and nobody knows that you love me, except me ♥

wish i was comin home to see you

2011-08-27T08:54:00.000-07:00

I wanna tell you now that baby I miss you
Another day is gone
Wish I was coming home to see you
Girl I wanna show you how much I adore you
I can't imagine me being close to someone else
Cuz you're all I need

I gotta see you
I gotta feel you
I desperately need your touch

I wish I could be with you right now
I wanna hold you close
But you're so far away
Wanna hold you all night long baby
Like every single day
and even if it's just for a moment
I'd be good cuz I don't want no one else

While I'm on a subway
on a bus, on a plane
I'm always thinking of you
Why you're not here right next to me
my mind is telling me I need to be strong, but
I feel like crying
never know when I can feel you next
it's too hard for me

I gotta talk to you
While I wasn't there
Tell me how your days were

I'll wait for you
If you wait for me
Just show me you care
For nobody else
Baby please wait

We'll be together soon
Just keep your love strong
and pray that
We hold on, I pray
That we hold on
Cuz you're the one for me

travellin the world

2011-08-27T08:46:00.000-07:00

notre dame cathedral
my first stop of travellin around the world :)

Vietnam, Ho Chi Minh City <3

Keep on smiling :)

2011-08-20T19:24:00.000-07:00

It's been special everyday since I've first met you.
You gave me a reason to wake up with a smile on my face every morning.
And as I wake up,
I know that I will be joining a world that includes a beautiful person like you.
I hope that you already know why.

Hey love,

2011-08-20T19:21:00.000-07:00

when im gone

2011-08-20T19:13:00.000-07:00

hey,
when im gone
dont forget to smile!
keep smiling
and dont worry
cause ill be back for you
ill come back
i promise you

So keep smiling!

missin you crazy

2011-08-20T19:04:00.000-07:00

While the stars up high stares at you,
I lay here awake missing you

Im crazy over you ><

We're both little people

2011-08-20T18:50:00.000-07:00

I wished so much that everymorning,
everysingletime i wake up from bed,
ill see you lying right beside me

i miss you badly <3

2011-08-20T18:45:00.000-07:00

I dont wanna close my eyes
I dont wanna fall asleep
Cause I miss you babe
And i dont wanna miss a thing
When im with you

you broke my heart today

2011-08-17T02:34:00.001-07:00

When you smile, its all that matters

2011-07-30T17:37:00.000-07:00

If you need me
I'll come running running
From a thousand miles away
Baby take my open heart and all it offers
Cause this is as unconditional as it'll ever get
You ain't seen nothing yet
I wont ever hesitate to love you more

ILOVEYOU ♥

92days♥

2011-07-30T17:21:00.000-07:00

Hey you.
I just want you to know that,
You are the reason,
why even at the saddest part of my life,
I SMILE.
Even at confusion,
I UNDERSTAND.
Even in betrayal,
I TRUST.
Even in fear of pain,
I LOVE.

I've learnt to walk again because of you.
Thank you for just being mine.
Lets make it through together.
I really dont wanna lose you.

92days♥ ILOVEYOU

2011-07-23T05:42:00.000-07:00

You've got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
That you keep that smile.

You are my dream,
There's not a thing I won't do.
I'll give my life up for you,
Cuz you are my dream.

And baby, everything that I have is yours,
You will never go cold or hungry.
I'll be there when you're insecure,
Let you know that you're always lovely.
Girl, cos you are the only thing that I got right now

One day when the sky is falling,
I'll be standing right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I'll be standing right next to you,
Forever.

If you had my child,
You make my life complete.
Just to have your eyes on little me,
That'd be mine forever.

We're made for one another
Me and you
And I have no fear
I know we'll make it through
Bcuz I know you'll be there for me.
And I love you
=D

A sky full of lighters

2011-07-02T17:51:00.000-07:00

This one's for you and me,
living out our dreams
We're all right where we should be
Lift my arms out wide
I open my eyes
And now all I wanna see
Is a sky full of lighters

Perfect Two

2011-07-02T17:40:00.000-07:00

You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain and I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero and I can be your side kick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'

Don't know if I could ever be
Without you, cause girl you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all that we need

Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry
Cause your the one for me
And I'm the one for you
You take the both of us
And we're the perfect two

You can be the princess and I can be your prince
You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages

You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together

You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya
I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the isle

Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

you

2011-06-27T06:01:00.000-07:00

Lately, Ive been up in my head so much
that i've failed to realise that you're there
Ive been complainin, and complainin
get mad, gettin pissed, havin mood swings
busy feelin sorry for myself, that i forgot you're there

you are there most when i needed you
and you withstand my moody-ness
or cacat-ness
you are amazing
and i love you

thank you for loving me still
and for standing my moods and emo-ness
gosh, i fucking love you

i want it to stop

2011-06-27T04:27:00.000-07:00

Been so looking foward to today
Was so excited cuz we're gona play bball
cdnt contain my happiness once we're thr
but got caught up in smthn
and i ended bein the only one not bein able to play
heart-brokened TT
today shud be the best time to play cuz seam's not here
so evryone stress-free abit><
im really so fckin pissed
not mad at anyone
juz mad at the way things are
how im suferin frm alot of bad-luck streak these days
wasted my time
wasted ALOT of time
got so fckin pissed off
i kept throwin these empty glass bottles on d wall
stupid one hit my hand

and still got loads of stuffs to do
theres sum 30-40 smthn list to b done 2day
and SPM's pure pressure
fuck TT
not gona slp 2day
whole week tak cukup tidur
im so fckin tired of everything
im so tired of bein vanessa
i need to go run now

fill in the BLANK

2011-06-09T09:40:00.000-07:00

You...
I had so many things to tell you today
So many stories that i wanna tell you
Stuffs that happen
Funny things, sad things, crazy things that i wanna share with you
But, when i saw you today.....

[BLANK]

i saw you and i went [BLANK!]
i didnt know what to say
my hands are sweaty
my legs suddenly weak
then i can only stare at you
no, i tried not to stare at you, not too much
and i didnt really have much to talk to you about
i was running out of things to say....
i think i talked alot of crap ><
sumtimes i dun even noe wat d heck i am talkin about to you
and i was nervous :(
i still get butterflies when i see you, cacat ><

then i dont know what went wrong
mayb i just went emo cuz
i was boring you out ... zzz
i went jealous, cuz others can make you laugh
...but i cant :(
maybe i think too much ... TT
aaah i dunno ...

and i hate goodbye's
i hate the feeling of having to say gudbye
i hate it when you had to leave
i hate the feeling wen i see you go
i hate it that we got only so little fckin time
and i hate it cause

i feel selfish

argh... you make me CRAZY !

You are so fucking beautiful

2011-06-06T04:41:00.000-07:00

You're so crazy hot
That i cant help
but get so high when im with you

030611

2011-06-06T04:15:00.000-07:00

Spent my bday with you :)

Thanks love for the cute present
I love you

Thanks for being with me for the day too
The time we spent means alot :)
Thank you for letting me be the first too ♥

grace!

2011-05-30T12:05:00.000-07:00

Grace Jie,
You called me around 3 in the morning just to ask me what i want for my birthday?
Dude, i know you're happily living and having the time of your life in New York

Haha FARK YOU!
What on earth were you thinking when you called me!
You knew the time difference was a whole 12hours right!
Screw you!

Anyway you OWE ME BIG TIME MAN!
You better get me what i want for my bday or im so gonna blackmail you =]
Yea told you im 'serious' and im posting it on my blog now!

Erhem here's the list.
1. Topman Indigo Coated Skinny Jeans

2. TOPMAN[UK] Skinny jeans

3. Uniqlo Sweater Authentic Parka

4. Stussy RED shoulder bag

5. Or get me any FIVE of this shirt! All colours!

Grace Jie,
You better get me one of these!
Haha! Or you're dead!
Thank you for your generosity dude! Spend more!
Luv you grace. Have fun shopping for me.
Ill be waiting for you =]

520

2011-05-30T11:04:00.000-07:00

Once in awhile

Right in the middle of an ordinary life,

Love gives us a fairy tale

12hours. its all i need

2011-05-30T10:43:00.000-07:00

You told me you couldnt make it on Friday
I didnt knew why
But i suddenly broke down
Im sorry i didnt tell you this
I hope you could make it girl
I dont know if I could be by myself any longer
Im sorry
I really felt so broken then
I know its not your fault
But Im not strong

If you really cant
I dont know what i'd do
but i'd apologise now,if i get out of control later

im sorry

Fallin in

2011-05-29T03:19:00.000-07:00

Everytime I see your face
My heart takes off on a high speed chase
Now don't be scared, it's only love
Baby, that we're falling in

I can't wait for tomorrow
This feeling has swallowed me whole
And know that I've lost control
This heart that I've followed
Has left me so hollow
That was then, this is now, babe you've changed everything

I would never do you wrong
Or let you down or lead you on

I'm standing in your driveway
It's midnight and I'm sideways
To find out if you feel the same
Won't be easy, have my doubts too
But it's over, without you I'm just lost, incomplete
Yeah you feel like home,
home to me

All those nights I stayed away
Thinking of all the ways to make you mine
All of those smiles will never fade
You never run out of ways to blow my mind

thank you

2011-05-28T12:01:00.000-07:00

dont ever leave me

its you

2011-05-28T11:02:00.000-07:00

thank you so much for believin in me
thank you for wanting me
thank you for loving me
thank you for still wanting me evntho you had your doubts
thank you for being you
thank you for caring
thank you for makin me smile
thank you for being there
thank you for understanding
thank you for standing up for me
thank you for being strong
thank you for your heart
thank you cuz you are mine

babe, lets make thru this together

today

2011-05-28T10:54:00.000-07:00

someone asked me if i missed you today
i didnt answer.
i just closed my eyes and walked away.
then, i said to myself

"so fucking much"

IMY

cuz im in love

2011-05-28T10:36:00.000-07:00

made this for her

paiseh ><

them

2011-05-25T04:55:00.000-07:00

Serve your parents,
drive them around when you're free
feed them , love them, miss them
listen to them tell the same story 5000 times,
smilin and happily ask them wat happen again and again and again.
Do you know why?
Cuz to them, that is all that's left

appreciate your mum and dad.
cuz in the end, you'll finally realise
they're the ones who are always there for you,
no matter how many times you hurt them.
tell them sorry, and say u love them
before its too late,
or you'll be broken and regret your life for it.

you are all ive got

2011-05-25T04:43:00.000-07:00

When i feel down
and feel as tho the whole world is against me
I dont feel so bad
cause now;
I am just glad that i have you
You make me strong
You give me strength
You leave me feeling happy
and You make me crazy
Thank you for being there
Thank you for lovin me
Thank you for being YOU

Please dont leave me ever;

cause now, you're all I've got

n-R

2011-05-23T03:51:00.000-07:00

If people react negatively to you.
And you react the same way,
then you are just the same as them.
But, you say, they started it.
Yes, they did
but you continued it.

What's the difference?

misconception

2011-05-23T03:41:00.000-07:00

When a person whom you have placed great hope
hurts you,
it is not that person who has hurt you.
It is your wrong intent,
wrong motive
and wrong projection towards that person,

that has hurt you.

you wouldnt want to know

2011-05-17T04:36:00.000-07:00

dont keep me waiting for too long
damn, it feels empty when you arent there
and im really tired
but someday it might turn into numbness
and i cant feel a thing
im really afraid it might just be gone one day
and i cant bring it back

2011-05-17T04:17:00.000-07:00

it feels really broken
when you see the world around you moving
and you are stuck where you are
you see people changing
people living
people having lives
people growing
when all you are is nothing

you have nothing
no one to hang on
nobody seems to know what goes on in your life
you are invisible and lonely

and the thing starts destroying your mind
creating illusions of grave polaroids
you feel so left out
when people are busy moving on
you sit there sobbing in self-indulgence
immersed in the feeling
that brings you down

you say you think to much
but you keep howling
trying to get this thing away from your mind
to stop thinking about it
for it to go away

but in the end,
it is the reality that scares you
you have to face it someday
because it is true
to accept would be the pain
to receive it would mean to kill oneself

and when that moment comes
then tell me
what are you going to do?

i want the magic

2011-05-17T04:00:00.000-07:00

it feels like im growing up too fast
i dont wanna leave this age yet
im not through living my life to the max
there are a thousand things i still need to do
dreams to reach, achievements to jump to, people to meet, places to see, a life to live
i dont want to leave this moment i am in yet
i still want to see life and experience that feeling that makes the world burst out in you
its like finding magic in yourself
and not letting anyone else know
it is your secret
and it is yours

2011-05-10T01:26:00.000-07:00

couldnt sleep
and so i made these for you

didnt sleep. made it the whole night
im really going crazy for you
what have you done to me TT

I wont do it again

2011-05-10T01:11:00.000-07:00

Im sorry
I really didnt mean to do it
I broke the promise TT
I wont do it again
I only want you and no one else
I cant lose you
I cant stand it without you talkin to me
I wont do it again :(
Im sorry
Im sorry
Im sorry
Im sorry
Im sorry
Im sorry
Im sorry
Im sorry
Im sorry
Im sorry
Im sorry
Im sorry

What would you do for a friend

2011-05-08T04:30:00.000-07:00

What would you do if you found out that your bestfriend,
doesnt think of you as theirs in return?
What would you feel if the person that you've sacrificed your time, money, energy, feelings,
doesn't actually give a damn about you?
When you were in trouble,
I was there.
I was damn worried about you.
I tried my best to help you solve your problems.
I dropped everything just to help you.
I failed alot of things, I put people down, i dissapointed people,
just to help you out.
I trusted you and helped you back on your two feet again.

But,
when I called you to tell you i was having a problem,
when i said i just needed someone as a friend,
even just for awhile,
you said you were busy, and that you had no time.

You just didnt know,
all the things I've let go just for you.
What I did just to be by your side when you were sad or angry.
What i let go just to have fun times with you.
I tried my best to be a good friend, you know.
I really think of you as my best buddie.
Someone that i trusted,
someone that i could run to if i was depressed or down.

But, it turns out,
you dont even think of me as someone important.
What i feel, or what i want,
isnt important to you.
You think i am annoying, that im a pain in the ass.
You feel so hard even just to do something small for me.
When i called you, and told you i needed help,
you said goodbye, and i laughed and said im sorry for disturbing.
You said im childish, and you never stood up for me when everyone was against me.

Maybe, im sensitive.
i've thought about it too.
But, is it wrong for me to feel this way when is already been 2years you've been treating me this way.
i really love you as a friend.
i've been hoping that you would return back to the same old person, and be my friend again.
But, now i finally realised that what i've been holding onto is useless.
Im trying to avoid you know.

appreciate the friends you have,
because, it is hard
to find a real friend.

I thought i had one,
but it turns out all this while,
i was just imagining that i had one.
I realise finally...
i dont have a friend.
I want to start anew and get out of this misery.
Somebody help me.

2011-05-06T06:17:00.000-07:00

Here

2011-05-06T06:04:00.000-07:00

In a perfect world, we'd be one.
I'd believe in you especially those times when you don't believe in yourself.
Im constantly amazed by you.
I'd blindly trust you.
I'd respect your mindset.
I'd find home in your voice.
I'd support you even when I don't like your choice.
When you're there for me, I'd drop it all and run to you.
You'd look into my eyes and see me. I'd take care of you. I swear I'd save you.

And I'd fall in love with you every single day all over again.

oh im not single anymore

2011-05-06T00:37:00.000-07:00

Yea.
this is for Justin Bieber.
Hahahaha xD

i miss you budak

cuz i was bored :)

2011-05-06T00:23:00.000-07:00

Bored. didnt went to school today,
so i cam-whored like hell.

Woke up,
makan-makan
sat staring on my studytable
makan-makan
found out i couldnt concentrate,
makan-makan again ==
Its so the bOring!

Sigh. History tomorrow.
Im frying my brains off the walls.

2011-05-05T03:08:00.000-07:00

After all the days of suffer and agony,
I finally told you that I LOVE YOU.

And im going so fucking crazy right now.

2011-05-03T09:57:00.000-07:00

i farking miss you weih

all you party people

2011-05-01T12:53:00.000-07:00

1. pump it up like a tonka truck
2. if you go hard, you gotta get on the floor
3. get ready for things to get heavy
4. Say no more get on the floor
5. Dance the night away
6. Live your life and stay out on the floor
7. Grab somebody
8. drink a little more
9. Don’t stop
10. keep it moving
11. put your drinks up
12. Raise the roof wreck the dancehall
13. These walls light it up
14. Make some noise yeah
15. find some bitch and make up
16. Bring the roof down

people go wild

2011-05-01T12:33:00.000-07:00

i wanna go wild someday
and start partying,
clubbing till the roof comes down
and nothing will stop the music.

Watch them bodies moving, adreline pumping hard,
gettin wasted, music blasting.
And you cant stop me
cause the euphoria is high in my head
ill see the world flying
in coloured neon lights
and then ill know,
how life really feels like.

1st may 2011

2011-05-01T12:28:00.000-07:00

have you seen this girl?
she's been running thru my dreams.
and its driving me crazy.

without you

2011-04-22T06:08:00.000-07:00

i'd give my life up for you,
cuz now you are my dream

i fucking love you

girl, you are the only thing that i got right now

IMY♥

2011-04-22T05:46:00.000-07:00

i dont know why,

but i so fucking miss you right now
not seeing you for one day
and already it made me go crazy
you are everything right now
you are my dreams
you are the stars
you are the paper roll
you are my homeworks
gawd, i see your face everywhere
oh i pray to God so much
that i'd not fall in love
but i did
and im going so fucking crazy right now

i miss you TT

She's always on my mind

2011-04-17T06:59:00.001-07:00

She’s always on my mind,
there’s no room left for thinking
I’m tired of waiting slowly fading
at least I’m happy now oh,
I’m running out of time,
and I feel like this ship's sinking
The doors are closing
and I am frozen

I love you

Mum and Dad

2011-04-17T06:32:00.000-07:00

Mum and dad
I really love you guys so much for respecting my freedom
You guys don’t nag me much
Don’t scream at me much
NO sudden invasions on my room
NO scary spot-checks
NO sudden confiscation
You guys don’t ask me much
Don’t get mad at me much :)
Haha, im basically livin a perfect family life

But, at times, I kinda get carried off
Thinking of only myself and well …. myself
Yeah. With vanessa’s mood swings and crazy self.
You guys bared it all.
I know it is hard to live with a typical teen like me.
But you guys sticked close to me,
being my supporting sticks.
And I love you both so much for it.

Im sorry that I distanced myself away from both of you so much.
I don’t talk to you both.
I don’t update you on my life.
I don’t share stories of my life with you.
You barely even know me much, right?
I guess it partly my fault.
I don’t open up much to you guys.
I have difficulties on that, I don’t know why.

But, I want you both to know that
I LOVE YOU MUM AND DAD
And I love everything that you’ve ever did for me

Just giv me some time to change
And to open up
Cuz im not ready yet
But, please do wait for me
I love you both ><

2011-04-13T07:04:00.000-07:00

the funny thing is,
nobody really knows how much anybody else is hurting.
We could be standing next to someone who is completely broken
and we wouldn't even know it.

2011-04-13T06:25:00.000-07:00

You know, i really thought you were my friend. I helped you when you were down. supported you when you needed help. became a good friend. listen to all your worries and problems. sacrificed things i love most just to help you. dropped everything just to be there for you. i did everything a good friend would do. because you were my friend, and you were someone that i cared for, you are my friend.
but instead, you dont appreciate all the things i've done. you think im childish. you didnt stand up for me when i was bullied. you didnt care if i wasnt there. you wouldnt care much if i broke down. you avoided me when im down. i said i needed a friend, and you said you had things to do. you dont care about me.
you made me felt lonely. cuz you are the one friend that i could talk to for hours at a time. you are the one, i wouldnt feel so bored with. we share so many funtimes, and stories only both of us would know. we'd laugh at funny things or at funny stuffs that only we'd understand. we've been friends for 5years now but lately, we are 'distance-ing' away.
to me you are my bestfriend. but in your life, i am not. but its okay. to me you are important. but, i know, someone else is much more important to you. i know in life, at times, love is more important then friendship. i realize, maybe to you it is. but i would really appreciate it if you were there for me at times i needed someone.
at times i needed a friend, you just weren't there, but i really dont mind. just dont leave me alone all the time.
i get it that you're busy with your life and im not so important. its okay actually. i dont really mind it.
but, mostly im ignored. but i acted as though i didnt mind, continued with my childishness, to hide off the pain it felt,of being ignored
yes, maybe im annoying. im sorry for it too. i may not be up to your standards. but i am being me.
all i needed is a friend. someone who'd listen and understand. who'd be there for me at times when i am not myself. to be happy for me, and be with me during hard times or not. its okay if you feel its a waste of time being with me, i woudnt really mind it abit. but, i just hope you'd be there more often when i needed you. i still do love you as a friend. just dont leave alone most of the time. i might just do something, and never return back.

2011-04-13T06:15:00.000-07:00

just because she comes off strong
doesnt mean she didnt fall asleep crying
and even though she acts like nothing's wrong,
maybe she's just really good at lying

2011-04-10T05:58:00.000-07:00

How do I get close
When she looks like an angel
A moment of her time just seems impossible to me
It’s hard to find the words,
to get to know this stranger
I’m scared of what she’ll say if what I say sounds stupid

But it feels like we belong together
Can someone tell me where do I start

Cuz, I can’t keep on feelin’ the way I do
I can’t keep on, hiding my heart from you
I got to say something before
Someone else comes through,

I just can’t keep on loving you,
From a distance

When i am free

2011-04-02T04:22:00.000-07:00

I want a life,
where I could just dance,
run a gig,
travel around the world,
have cool friends around and
just be ME.

Not stuck in some shitty school.

Our crazy night out.

2011-03-29T03:18:00.000-07:00

Earth Hour this year,
hang out with jia wei. chui ye and jia yi.
Its was cool.
Came home arnd late night.
We celebrated at Lot 10, ROOFTOP!
It was serious awesome.
There's even a night club up on the roof.
Its basically like a garden on a building.
We went crazy mostly.
Then it got romantic.
We lie on the grass, starring at the big ocean of sky.
It would actually be perfect,
only if there were stars across the sky,
and only if you were there.

But it was awesome.
Love to hang out with these peeps again next time :D

2011-03-28T22:12:00.000-07:00

sigh. i think im going crazy.
you 're makin me crazy.
im mad.
im insane.
im fcking weird.
my mind is fucking set on you,
and i dont know why,
but i think i've gone crazy over you.

I just didnt mean it girl, it just so happen.
And now im confused,
you made me so.

I don't know where we are right now.

I am just so confused.

my big city dreams

2011-03-22T02:48:00.001-07:00

Oh yeah.
I have big city dreams.
I just wanna travel and live free.
To search for myself and to find out who I am.
I wan to taste that sweet taste of freedom.
To be finally free from everything and everyone.

and just be ME .

Eternal sunshine of the crazy mind

2011-03-22T02:16:00.000-07:00

When she is alone, the thoughts come in like flooding grudges.

Sweeping off everything alive

nothing is left

everything else blank ,

nothing but its darkness.

The pain of it skected itself onto her, leaving a sense of numbness.

Craziness .

It destroys her mind .

It controls her thought. She is left helpless , fighting onto something to hold on.

It takes and drowns her in its darkness.

Insanity they call it.

She's losing her mind.

She's talking to the sun.

She has lost herself .

nightmare

2011-03-22T02:12:00.000-07:00

She may look happy on the outside
laughing and acting goofy
being childish and pretending she doesn't feel anything
when deep inside
she is broken
lost from everything
lonely and sad

she may look happy
she may look as tho she doesnt care
she may act cool, and say she doesnt feel a thing
she acts strong and let people push her around
she lets the pain grow deep inside
till the pain grows into a big lump
that its so impossible to feel happy anymore
she's dying on the inside
crying for help

she keeps showing signs
writing and talking of signs
hoping somehow her friends will notice
of the hell she's going through

she cries every night
under the shower, so no one could hear her
she cries beneath the pillows
so her tears are muffeled
she turns the radio on
so the sound drowns her sad howl

she may look perfect on the outside
surrounded by friends and friends,
she may look happy and crazy
she may look strong
but
the truth is
she could break any moment
snap like a twig
and be seen no more

she may have loads of friends
but she is lonely
she is in deep trouble
please help her
before it damages her

she is desperate for help

she is lonely

Let me be free

2011-03-22T01:56:00.000-07:00

Because I have a BIG city dream in a small time nightmare .

Plumbline Dreams

2011-03-22T01:51:00.000-07:00

No matter what i did. It just gets worst. I am so sick of living in this environment. I just wanna take off , leave this city , walk away , find a life and live free .

I.just.wanna.be.me

why

2011-03-22T01:49:00.000-07:00

I feel so stuck . I just cant get out. This pain is killing me.

Why cant you just let me be. I want myself and my world.

Stop fucking around and let me be free.

Big City Dreams

2011-03-22T01:47:00.000-07:00

I feel like leavin and takin off to so search the world now.

I . feel . so . stuck .

2011-03-22T01:38:00.000-07:00

Share you dreams with the world !

2011-03-19T09:39:00.000-07:00

sorry.

all i ever did was just -----
menyusahkan kamu

IGNORE me everytime i do wat i did
im a pain in d ass

><

2011-03-19T09:29:00.000-07:00

SIGH .

its baack to school again.
I miss my holidays.
and the hang outs I did wit myself.
I miss lepaking
I miss the freedom

SIGH .

back to school
to the BORING OLD HOLE
one thing is keeping me happy tho.

BASKETBALL COMP COMING UP!!!!

YEAH!

=D

2011-03-18T09:57:00.002-07:00

she is so hot larrr
aahh
seriously
i dunoo why I keep thinkin of her hawt legs :D
and her hot bod
and her hawt hair
aah and the waay she sit,
wanna FUCK her larr! Haha.

audreys says im gatal ><

she's one high class babe lar.
so tak der chance....
can hav her in my dreams je larr xDD

Vanessa think straight.

SIGH

crapping in the middle of the night la.

2011-03-18T09:57:00.001-07:00

cutt hair today .
its horrible la weih .

2011-03-04T05:53:00.000-08:00

and when you think she is your friend,

she left you alone
when all you really needed is her

2011-03-04T05:37:00.000-08:00

I hope that

when you're on the other side of the world

you're talkin to the moon

just like I do

We are two people

separated

but are one by the moon

Girl,

just imagine

its just us up there

having the whole world beneath our feet

thinking about nothing but us

and what we're gonna be

I love you

2011-02-27T04:52:00.000-08:00

Seriously, i dont know what's your fucking problem.
You're avoiding me like shit.
It hurts shit when im ignored.
I have feelings too.
And you make me feel lonely.
Like im a freak.
A stupid monster.

I get it.
You dont wanna talk to me.
You dont want me in your life.
You dont want to have anything whatsoever to do with me.
Then fine.

I get it.
I wont talk to you.
I wont look at you.
I wont touch you.

It's what you fucking want right.

2011-02-18T17:02:00.000-08:00

She's got wings
She's got a halo
She looked at me
And took me by surprise
As if she took me by the hand
To some foreign land
And had me way up, way above the clouds in the sky
I'd be glad to leave my all
And be with her
Till the world comes tumbling down

Girl
I know you got a lot on your mind
But it won't be long
Cuz soon I'll come
And grab you from where you are
And then babe,

We'll have the whole night to ourselves

I'm looking at an angel
And believe me when I say it
Cause girl
You had me going crazy
Thinking about you and your crazy body
Yeah

She's a beautiful thing